HER ELUSIVE

shes doing it wrong
loving , and being true to him
shes asking for something
in silent whispers
in cryptic impulses
she wants perfection
in her fullest control
she wants a touch of her fantasy

she lives by the moment
she hangs on to every passing thought
shes on the look out
for those pricking flings
shes selfish
hes selfish
shes obssessed with her
and so is he

but she never forgets
how many times does she stay sleepless
tossing and whining
in hurt or resentment
she wants a reciprical
she wont say it
she will peek the next day
through the corners of her eyes
and afraid she will see

she will boil in her anger
she will walk away
she will say the worst
but never what she should
she doesnt retrieve joy from hurting
the one she loves
but shes hiding from something
from asking for too much

shes failed miserably at closure
maybe having secrets
and a tinted face
keeps her alive
yes she can trust
but the tension of her well of tears
is holding her back

she wants to throw it
for every ounce of disappointment
maybe its worth the waste of time
she can be that different
but its only in her mind can she ask
for that much.....